Amazing "Grace"

I'm so glad that I met this gal Grace from Malaysia during my stay in Japan. She is such a blessing to all of us here. As I wrote before, I was suffering from love poisoning, and I am praying for some advice...

So last nite, when I had the "last supper" with Grace (she is going home in malaysia =(), she told me her story with Josh...how God put two of them together...such an amazing story. Then I asked her if God "assigns" a guy for you, it will be smooth and easy? and she said yes and told me not to rely on my feelings as feelings would change, they would fade somehow. She makes me realize I really have to obey God in every way...even it may hurt, but Grace told me it will only last for a short period of time...

Then when I get back to the J house...i talked to Jessica Lee about my situation, and I am rite, she is the rite person to talk to...and I felt better after talking to her... Jessica asked why I think it's not God's will, but it was pretty obvioius that it was just my fantacy...=(

Now, I was just thinking, I can still tell him but of coz I have to stop thinking about him at the same time...will I be able to do it??

All of A Sudden...Think about this song

Eyes On Me (Theme song of Final Fantasy VII)
曲 : 植松伸夫 / 主唱 : 王菲 Faye Wong
Whenever sang my songs
On the stage,on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar
My last night here for you
Same old songs,just once more
My last night here with You ?
Maybe yes,maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh,did you ever know ?
That I had mine on you
Darling,so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer
So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you
Darling,so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming
Darling,so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

Love Poisoning

Geezz...is it a sin to be suffered from love poisoning?

Adam is pretty "sick" now, he came up to me and said she thought the waitress @ the chinese restaurant looks like Mariko!! I thought Jason was just joking about Adam having a crush on this gal, but then, now it's so obviously it's more than a joke...I just need to pray for him, as he just talked to me about this, maybe he thought I can understand him better than anyone else in our team. I'm willing to be his listener.

I am suffering from love poisioning on and off rite now. Yesterday I felt good that "he" is not around, but today I was kinda sad that he was away...for the soccer game. I was so "lum" when I watched him play frisbee today...aiyaya...that sucks...

After hearing the story about Jessica and Ben, I am really considering to tell him about my feelings...at this moment, I'm pretty sure it's more than a crush now (Damm!!) becoz I got a little bit jealous when I saw him getting close with Japanese gals...but when I saw Adam talking to Mariko, I don't get jealous...so I can see there is a difference btw my feelings to him and other boys. I know he doesn't look at me the way I want him to, but I don't want to regret I never tell him I like him. I think I will be okay even after telling him I like him, I can pretend I did not say anything. AHHHHHHH!! I want some advice, but I don't think any gal besides Jessica is the right person to talk with.

What should I do? Sometimes I am okay about him, but the struggling feeling always attack when I am not prepared.

anyway, I was totally forget about him when I was working for God. I had my first Godly conversation in Japan with a gal called Kaori from Kangaku. I dunno how much she understands, but I'm sure that God will continue his work on her!! We will win her for God for Sure!! God is rocking in Japan!

HELP!

aiii...he will definitely know I was talking about him when he reads my blog, but I dun think anyone else besides me and C will read this, so it will be okay.

I am getting sick and "sick" now...too bad

R U Ready?

Yes! I'm ready...it's 15th May, 2005 @ 2:06pm....I will be going to Spokane within less than an hour...our flight is @ 6am on 16th...and I will be in Osaka around 7:10pm 16th...

God prepares my heart!! Turn my eyes upon Jesus!!!
Thanks!!

Anger is not sinful

"Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath ..." (Ephesians 4:26)


wow..i'm really glad that I found this biblical phrase when I am seaching information for my exam tmr...last nite I was going thr some conflict and anger issue (just mild tho)...so Thanks God!

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Will update what happened...i tried last nite but the computer froze on me!

FW: 某學校宣傳片... 好笑!!!

http://www.cneccc.edu.hk/associ/prefect/Discipline.wmv

撞鬼囉~
不斷o係網上同forwarded e-mails度見倒lee 條link
我校o既短片成為左大家o既笑話...
不過其實我覺得都幾有心思丫, 可以換首輕鬆d o既歌~

I still love my school tho~~~ "金山巍巍, 香海..."

相愛, 不如相知...

連續一個星期o係度煲 <<仙劍奇俠傳>> (電視劇), 雖然改編左, 個故事同本身個遊戲有d唔同 (但最後仍是有點悲..=( ) 不過卻令我再一次懷念我那時玩仙劍的日子. 我想仙劍的完美是在於當時那種着迷的感覺吧! 我一度的希望逍遙跟靈兒的結局可以透過電視劇來改寫, 希望他們能快快樂樂的在一起, 但如果是這樣的話, 那也不是仙劍啦...好矛盾...

9 More Days to OSAKA!!

Wow...it's single digit now...it's getting closer and closer...
ahhhh~ I dun want to pack ar...I have so much stuff
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Yeah....i'm done with all classes now!!
get done with my Nutrition Care Plan presentation, as Carlee said, I dun care about the grade now, just be glad that it's all done...2 more exams and 3 take home finals to go!!!

12 More Days to OSAKA!!

13 more Days to OSAKA!

Thanks C!!
see you when I come back!!

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'.' The stovers did not accept credit care payment, I needed to go to the Commons Food Court to get my lunch....hehe...and then I met him. We talked for a while...and I feel great about being his friend...I am not sure if I want more...

14 more days to OSAKA!!

God is an Amazing Provider

Yeah, it's worth it to keep my faith in God!!!

It was kinda in a hurry when we have only 15 more days before going to Japan and I only have around US$880 in my mission a/c till today. My friend who said she would sponsor US$1000 for my trip hasn't replied me yet. I started to doubt and worried about that I might not made it to the mission trip. But I decided to stand firm and believed God will provide what I need because we still have time (even not that much)

And guess what, I just received a call from Angela (who is "that fd" i was talking about) and she is still willing to be one of my sponsors!! God, I felt so relieved now, you did answer my prayer...as always! Thanks!!!

Now, Keep praying for my heart...to be pure and only work for God...be his servant and spread his SUPER GREAT words to the Japanese college students!!! AMEN!

Ethnic Outing @ Couer d'Alene, IDAHO

Yeah, I made it to the restaurant outing organized by Food and Nutrition Club this time. Today we went to a Greek restaurant called "The Olympia". (last time the club went to one of my favourite Thai restaurant in Lewiston, Idaho.) It took us around 3 hours to get there, but since we had so much fun on the way there, it doesn't seem as long as it was.

It was nice that we had 8 people came with guest like Dr. Branen and Katie's boyfriend (they look so cute together!!! =)) It was my first time been to a Greek Restaurant! I always want to go to Greece, so it's a nice start here.

Anyway, I ordered a lamb souvlaki (just pita bread with Greek style lamb) with chicken lemon soup. Oh my goodness, I love the chicken lemon soup a lot, and I want to make it at home!!! The souvlaki was great too but not too surprising coz I always have the similar things @ school. haha

Besides eating great food, we also had a fun conversation with each other. Dr. Branen was such a fun person!! I wish I took her eating disorder class in lecture format instead of from the web!! Again we are comparing her with Dr. Gabel...ai...I don't really feel like Dr. Gabel was too controlling (maybe she is less controlling to me coz she knows I will obey and did well =p), and I understand that she wants to maintain her Dietetics program...I am just a little bit disappointed to find out she kinda overuse her power towards Dr. Culbertson. We all agree that Dr. Gabel was sad and she deserves some "life", e CPD is her life and seems like she has no friend (she never married!!)

Everyone is so glad that we only have 11 more days in the Moscow campus (that means we only need to face Dr. Gabel was 11 more days...) It would be heart breaking if Dr. Gabel knows exactly how we feel about her!! I really need to pray for her, hope that she can feel better and try to relax more!!!

will attach pics later~