HanHan離開seattle回spokane了...
真的不知道什麼時候會再見面
她又快要回台灣放寒假
如果我真的要去TX的話,
恐怕要再見也不是這麼容易,
所以也很幸運可以跟她hang out一下下
我也不知道我跟她屬於那一種程度的朋友啦
但我知道我很珍惜她的~

Give Thanks...with a Grateful Heart...

要立刻寫下...免得明天有其他事影響此刻的感覺

本來今天expect TX那份工作的回覆, 但等了一整天都沒有來電...
我沒有失望, 只是不敢期望
但今天很感謝主, 也感謝Claire的分享...

其中的一個故事蠻發人心省的
"如果此刻Jesus邀請你到衪家作客,
通常你都會先問衪家的address,
然後到mapquest.com找direction...
開車時又會怕走錯路, 錯過exit...等等
但如果Jesus是坐在你的旁邊,
衪知道路, 衪自會告訢你下個紅綠燈左轉,
哪一個exit要出"

"所以哪"...as long as你是跟Jesus一起走的話,
不需要事先找direction, 亦不需要擔心迷路!!!

其實搵工這一個"so-called"苦難的事情,
也真真是一個神的恩典,
想到衪這樣與我"一起走過的日子"
我又為什麼要有疑惑呢?

搵工的process將會是一個美好的見證,
I truly believe it...from the very beginning

Emotional

I'm being very emotional lately...due to all the things happened lately...

LORD, Show me MERCY!

最近比較安慰的事...是跟勝傾多左計...
曾經係一個好好的朋友
但係我黎左美國
少左聯絡
有一排我覺得同佢好陌生...even係我番香港之時

因為msn的緣故,
最近多左溝通, 好似冇之前咁rusty
希望唔係又一個one-way啦

我知錯喇,
係我冇努力去維持我地o既友誼
我仍然係當日傻傻地o既蘇穎嘉
請相信我係真心的!!


但願好多年之後,
當你想到一個真心o既朋友時, 你會想起我! (and vice versa)

想去了解人,
亦同樣渴望被了解,
但同時又害怕赤裸裸的將自己的內心顯示於人前

為什麼?
怕別人看出我內心的醜陋
怕不被接納

這樣的想法要追溯到小學時期
想真點也真夠恐怖,
一個小小的經歷能大大的影響一個人的成長
內心的傷要用時間去撫平,
還以為傷勢已經好了9成9,
卻又一個不小心把瘡疤揭開
重新治療中...

這一刻的我是沒有愛心的

凡事謝恩

"凡事謝恩" 是為今日Sermon之題目也. 反思

面對生活上這麼多不如意, 不完美的事, 要如何才可堅持"凡事謝恩"呢?

• 不要為"因為"...(好事, 如意事)而感謝主
• 反要為"雖然"...(壞狀況)而感謝主

太難了, 不知從何做起!

今天的謝飯禱告:
感謝主今天一個人吃飯, 因為很可能將要再一次過一個人的生活, 謝謝你讓我慢慢適應

還在昨天的special service:
我只能說這個陳佐人牧師真的很厲害, 他亦很有智慧(both from GOD n worldly wisdom)...
他是一個refromed theologist, 他說的大部份東西我都不能完全吸收 (汗), 但其中有一點很明白的是, 我們建立教會/團契真的不能單單靠愛心和關懷...的而且確, 一個教會不能沒有愛, 但所有的愛應該要base on神的真道上才經得起風波, 站立得穩, 很好的提醒

一個人的"火雞節"

又係一年一度o既感恩節, 早上心中仍有些苦毒, 但現已心境平靜, 實在可喜可賀, 第一時間感謝主~

直值無聊, 又係時候update一下大家xanga~ (有subscription者除外)

funny quote from mark choi:
從事物流的大佬話﹕細個唔讀書，大個做運輸
讀緊護士的我答佢﹕前世做壞事，今世做護士

肥sam kinda寫自傳, 好佩服佢...

恭喜咁多位行完畢業典禮, 做野搵工都希望你地加油, 仲繼續大學生涯的請繼續努力+好好享受!

溫瑜個xanga d 歌通常都岩我聽, 佢玩drama好開心呀, 我都想玩!!

好想阿布,豬兜同gary寫番xanga

好想好想...好想同你地一個二個面對面傾計玩呀!

唉, 唔好煩喇, 個個都入subscription list啦~

well...i guess Daniel understands me pretty well most of the time...he said exactly "back up" this word when i told him my situation...not even the same meaning in chinese but the exact wording...

you might not be the most understanding person in the world, but thanks for being my listener all the time.

and of coz i am honored to be ur listener as well.

man..i'm going to have a lonely thxgiving this year...first time ever since I came to the United States...i really wanna stay with my host family, but due to a lot of reasons, I'm staying in Seattle...all by myself...

I hate it...I hate that I'm always the "back-up"...never be the "best pick"

back to the same old question:
Who is my best friend?
sorry i dont' have one
it's all my fault

感覺

我認為自己是一個感性的人...
好多時自己心中有好多的感覺在迴響,
很有衝動想將它們一一記錄下來
但礙於自己的文化水平"未夠班"
我并不想強行將自己的感覺造成一個形象
又或者將這些感覺放入文字的框框裡
所以為免"感覺出錯"
我決定還是將它們留在心底吧

Trip to Amarillo, TX

came back from TX yesterday nite...

so tired...it was my first time having a hard time falling asleep on the plane...alas, i still get some sleep eventually, but still...tired

I think it was the very first time I was alone in the United States...Yuk was with me on our 1st trip to WA even we hardly know anyone in this country

Amarillo seems to be smaller than I thought, which made me a little disappointed...but of coz I will still be grateful if I have a job here...coz I'm really unprepared for my interview, I can always do better than this. Why i haven't? my excuse is: I want to be myself, and my job does require me to be a real person, meeting people who's in need.

Who ever thought I will be driving someday? recall from mr. XBF, he thought I could never get a driver's license!!! but I did it and drove by myself to a place I have never been...and it turned out smooth, I managed myself well enough to go to places I need to go...on time!! yay for myself..."Kitty, you did a great job!!!" (please say it in an American way...haha)

I'm a little worry if I really have to accept this job offer, I started to apply for some other jobs once I got home...trying to hide?? but if it's what God plans for me, I will have to go!!! left everyone behind...?? but no one seems to take it as a big deal anyway...i'm half excited and half nervous about this adventure...my emotion is very complex now

傻女

"傻女...為何要苦笑, 明明我可以大叫..."

哈, 其實我要寫o既野同lee首歌冇乜關係...不過我成日都覺得自己係傻女
今日岩岩先抄番MR. XBF o既老家address, 因為諗住send張postcard contact下,
then又咁岩佢msn online, 十年都冇一次~
所以我都大膽咁"hey"左佢一聲,
之後就開始chatting...都真係幾開心!!!!!

我係唔係好傻丫??

New Math Teacher @ CNEC

news from To Hiu Fai...whom I chatted thr MSN couple days ago...

there is a new Math Teacher in CNEC from our class...haha...good job!

http://www.cneccc.edu.hk/aboutstf/maths_staff.htm

from my Xanga page

Thursday, November 09, 2006...I wrote...

Currently Reading
Walking by faith: Lessons learned in the dark
By Jennifer Rothschildsee related

女生外向
慘喇...
我完全覺得我家姐係屬於另一家人的...希望我到時唔會係咁啦~~~
自己o既屋企人係好重要的!!

Posted 11/9/2006 at 4:03 AM -

1 Comment--from JER JER
好耐都唔寫一次blog，一寫就寫我的衰野~
我都好重視我的屋企，
每個人都會有好多頭住家，你第日就會明白~
有時候，有血緣關係的屋企人表面上好似稍被看輕，
但事實上，我地先至能夠做到盡在不言中，
呢種幸福何處尋？

家姐好衰咖,
搞到我又喊...

study "abroad" abroad

um...i started to think about study abroad again...go somewhere outside the US or at least outside the Northwest of US....want to try sth new...

so I think i'm really ready to relocate now...get a fresh, brand new start!!!

getting tired of the same lifestyle??? a bit la...hehe

update on my job hunting process

so...that LA hospital contacted me n told me that they won't offer visa sponsorship...but i may still fight for a chance with the HR...if it's all about financial...i will try my best.

another interview passed with the WA veteran's Home, a nursing home for the veterans...not my most wanted job, but i went anyway. I got lost and I arrived that an hour late, I didn't know that I need to take the ferry to get to Port Orchrd n I missed the ferry, so I drove there instead. Pretty fun adventure on the highway, it took quite a while to get there actually. Interview was boring, same old quesiton set...same old stinky answers...haha...i just thought that what they are looking for didn't match what I can offer...

This coming Sunday I'm gonna fly down to TX for another interview on Monday...yeah, this time I can feel the sincerity of the company, they knew that I need visa sponsorship but still willilng to interview, they thought of a plan for me to get the visa successfully and even pay for the airticket and hotel!! man, if i pass this interview, there will be no problem at all as they are willing to take care the most difficult problem!!!

I thought that God shuts down the door for me to go to LA, so this should be His plan for me, but I googled today and found out there isn't any Chinese church down there!! how come?? so i start questioning myself...is this truly from God???? I wonder...

but well, as always...wish me luck la~ n also keep me in prayers...Thanks!

another "friend day"

today is another special "friend day" coz I talked to Ying and Gary...both haven't been talked to for quite a while...

nice to hear that Ying just got an offer so she will stay in SF now...doesn't have to leave her bf ma!!! but on the other side, Gary seems to be struggling with his family and career again...he mentioned that "a lot of things had happened" since I left Spokane, but he didn't provide the details...i guess...same old problems...i dunno how to help, i just offer a prayer...i hope he knows God is with him esp. during his "dark" moment!!!

Yesterday, went to lunch with Sharon n Jeff...seems like it was a bad luck day, coz Toy's cafe hasn't re-opened yet...and then ginza closes every Monday!! so we ended up going to SushiLand...yeah one of my favorite place in Seattle!!! nice to hang out with them outside church, but still feel like we didn't get to talk too in depth!! i guess it takes time!!!

你的名字, 我的姓氏

嘩~~
今日終於收倒Grace n Josh o既結婚相喇~ 冇錯~ 就係2年前o係日本短宣時識o既~~~
grace平時已經靚女咖啦, 結婚著wedding gown o個日超靚!!!!! 幾羨慕~

佢地會係一對好好o既couple~~~ 祝佢地o係神o既愛裡面一齊成長, 建立一個以基督為首o既家庭~

好正呀, grace已經改左josh o既姓啦~~~ 我都好鍾意 "你的名字, 我的姓氏"咖~~~~ 想嫁個s字頭o既人~ 咁咪可以keep我個initial KS 囉~ 哈哈哈~~ 又黎白痴~

Happy Birthday Jer Jer!!!

then next week...baba's bday...better send him a card!

Response from HR of Holy Cross

so the HR there called me today and wanna schedule a time with me when I can go there to finish all the paperwork and have a physical body test....I was like: i need to fly down there again??? I was just there last week, you should have everything done over that time right???

but then I also bring up the visa issue, i'm asking if they will be my visa sponsor...she is going to get back to me after asking "my boss" but i dunno when she will call again...i can't help with anything so i'm not gonna worry about it...it may be good coz i'm interviewing a job in WA this Thursday...wish me luck!!

Lift it all up to my LORD!!! Thanks my God for everything!!!

玩得太多都不適宜...

哈哈

lee個weekend連續3日都玩得好夜....

星期五: bible studies完左之後, 意外地竟然仲未過11點, sharon話唔想咁早返家, 於是我地叫埋lavina一齊去唱k...諗住唱1個hr多d, 但邊有可能....

星期六: 成差唔多11點先起身...lunch打邊爐, 之後又去唱k, (JJ + 我 + joyce)...然後無奈咁去左同d唔識o既人食左幾貴o既日本野....無奈咁坐左好耐聽d無聊人吹水...勁想死, 但又唔好意思, 都唔熟!

星期日: sunday church + sunday school完左之後, 我地14個人 (我, Sharon, Stella, SuHang, Eureka, William, Anthony, Jeff, Allen, Kelvin, Sara, Anne, Karen, n Lavina) 同台食lunch! 所以一餐食左好多唔同o既餸! 開心, 好少可嘛~ 之後去左china town買餸, for夜d去lavina家hang out的...夜晚搵路好辛苦, 又落緊雨, 所以d光反光好辛苦, 但好彩都搵倒去lavina家~~ 佢屋企好靚, 有得上樓咖~~~ 晚餐包餃子, 睇<<藉著雨點說愛你>>, 感人的戲!!!! then 傾下計, 又過12點, 又一day!!!

係咪好顛???? 都係once in a while咋, 老喇, 成日都咁好傷身!!!!

《好好戀愛》

《好好戀愛》

Meow shared a book named "Knight in shining armor" with me that made me wanna share this song i heard from the HK star evangelistic meeting last month....good reminder for all singles =)

http://home.i-cable.com/vincechoi/hoholuenoi.mp3

主唱：王祖藍 / 彭家麗　 作曲 / 填詞：陳立怡　 編曲：John Laudon
音樂人製作有限公司 Music Man Productions Limited

(女)我的天父，可否讓我好好地談戀愛，
不再流淚，不再傷痛，不再聚合又要分開。
我的天父，我只想要安穩地找個人來愛，
請讓我知道那個人在不在。

(男)我的孩子，難道你忘記了我就是愛，
學懂愛我，學懂愛你自己，你就懂好好戀愛。
我的孩子，何不嘗試安靜地慢慢去等待，
你就會知道那個人在不在。

(男)你是否願意相信，每時每刻都在我手裏，
(女) 　　 願 意 相 信， 　　
(合)沒有事情是太早或是太遲。
(男) 　　 願 意 相 信，
(女)愛我的主，我願意相信，萬事萬物都在祢手裏，
(男)我教你順服，我的旨意。
(女)請教我順服，祢的旨意。

Nice trip @ LA--meeting Meow

wow...long absence Meow!!!

i haven't seen her since we started College...4 years now...time really flies ne
Meow and her bf Joseph picked me up from the airport and then Meow's apartment.

Nice to see Meow again, I stayed at her apt for 2 nights. after the interview, we talked during the dinner time...memories from CNEC came back! Nice moment...hehe

Nice trip @ LA--meeting JerJer

My flight arrived LAX @ 2:30pm on Sat 20061028.

It was 3pm+ by the time I collected my luggage...so i thought Annie had taken off to the hotel already, so I started getting myself a shuttle. Annie called me after a minute I got on the shuttle saying that she just came out from LAX and waiting for the van!! Damn it...i wasted $15....

@ Hilton Anaheim
Annie wasn't there to pick me up...instead I saw some CX cabin crew waiting at the lobby...i hesitated a while and decided to go ask her if she is checking in and if she knows "Annie"...lucky me, she is from the same flight as my sister, so i got my sister's room no. and met her upstairs...

@ Downtown Disney, LA
i really wanted to relax and took it as a leisure trip, but going into the disneyland wasn't a brilliant idea, so jerjer and I only went to downtown disney to window shopping a little and then go eat @ Denny's...we ordered 3 big items...so we end up bringing 2 lunch boxes back to the hotel...talked for a while, watch "attention please" for a while...then we called it a day on 10/28

Nice trip @ LA--da interview vol. 2

The clinical Manager showed me around the hospital and I really thought it looks like Holy Family!! (btw, they are both Sisters of Providence hospital) so i think i like to work here~ people from HR is too busy to talk to me about benefits and stuff, so I only get a flyer with some information on.

the manager and the team really appreciate me flying down all the way from seattle for the interview and they felt so bad that i even took a taxi to came...so the manager look for public transportation for me and drove me to a train station...unluckily...i missed the train on 3:45 and the next one would be on 5:30!!!! I waited for a while but a random guy approach me, so i kinda ran away and got on a bus...after an hour, i was in the union station area, then walk for 15 mins, and wait for 30+ mins for another bus to go back to Meow's place....(which is another hour)...so i left the hospial @ 3:30...and arrived @ Meow's place @ around 9pm!! haha

I dun think I appreciate the public transportation in LA...but at that point, i dun have a choice! I was going to give up and call Meow to pick me up somewhere, but I made it at the end, Thanks God~~~ yeah...I made it

Nice trip @ LA--da interview vol. 1

Wow...LA's public transportation is very impressive...impressively slow!
in order to be on time for the interview on Monday, I took a taxi which took me around 25 minutes and my pocket weigh $45 less by the time I arrived Holy Cross Medical Center.

I was 1.5 hours early...but the manager asked to arrive early so i can fill out some application...well... 11:30am...too early i guess...it's just becoz i want to avoid traffic jam...i waited waited waited...review my portfolio, went to bathroom to check myself...blahblahblah...
when the clock finally hit noon, I tried to wait for a minute and ready to call the manager...then 2 phone calls regarding other job opportunities called!!! Dang it...so many phone calls...

finally i finished filling the application and ready for the interview, I was lead into a small office where other 4 dietitians were waiting for me. to be honest, pretty scary...but thanks God for the inner peace, I gave the best I could. I had some wrong (very wrong i would say) answers on technical questions...but surprisingly, after their small meeting, they all like me very much and wanted me right away!!!

so the manager filled out all the paperwork and all we do now is just to wait for the HR to approve...the salary won't be great but that's not the most concern part, i still dunno if they will sponsor my work visa...if they will, i'm pretty sure i will go, but if not, at least i prove to myself that I'm qualify for a job...AMEN!